First Entry

As far back as I can remember I wanted to help people not to suffer.

When I was eight I decided to become a doctor and followed through with this goal.  After years of apparently achieving all the worldly goals I could set, I was more unhappy than ever and so were the people around me.  It didn't make sense!  I had the career, the family, the house, the vacations, the friends, a healthy body, went to Mass ever Sunday, did volunteer work.  Now what?  I searched, met with my priest, meditated, read books, practiced yoga, took care of my children.   I tried many activities and methods to achieve happiness.  At times there were small break throughs, but the world still seemed to be assaulting me.   I knew this was not right.

Then I met the teachings of Tibetan Buddhism by the Grace of Geshe Michael Roach through Mira Shani.  That is when the bottom fell out of the world I thought I was living in, and a whole new possibility came into being for my mind.  Now I could make the whole world understand....if only I could change this (my) mind.

So I shifted my world by letting go of a regular job and studying with Holy Teachers.  I gradually shifted the amount of time I was spending parenting.

After years of intensive study given by the Grace of Geshe Michael Roach, Lama Sumati Marut, Lama Christie McNally, Lama Mira Shani and more, I have been given the tools to make peace in the world by undertaking deep retreat.  This is a gift that cannot be wasted.  It is more precious than anything else imaginable.

The obstacles feel insurmountable at times.  And there is nothing else to do.